|Little Princess <3|
In other news, Grace has graduated from supported sitter to sitter. She is no longer satisfied with being pulled to sitting from a diaper change, she now plants her feet and stands up! Its amazing and terrifying at the same time. I'm so proud of her strength and determination, but a little scared of her new move. I predict this little monkey will be walking sooner that we had expected!
|Waiting for Shots :(|
The X-rays were hellish. Grace did okay at first but got impatient pretty quickly. They strapped Grace into what looked like a baby electric chair and shined lights in her eyes. My Mom and I tried to keep her distracted and still any way we could. We had a few different shots taken of her skull and neck/spine, and were finally able to escape. I was told I'd get a call in the next few days regarding the results but still woke up a 9am this morning and called 15 times only to be told they'd call as soon as they read the report. Never in my life have I worried like I've worried for my baby. I'm sure the x-ray procedure didn't cause her any lasting mental scars and I wish I could say the same for my heart. It broke my heart watching my little lady squirm her way out of her little lead vest. I wanted to punch the x-ray tech in the face when she strapped my baby in the chair, but refrained. With the x-rays done, waiting commenced. Waiting for results, waiting for referrals, waiting for anything. It makes me feel physically ill to think of anything being wrong with her and me not being able to help. Shortly behind worry comes blame. I blame myself for not being more diligent in rotating her head when she slept and for letting her sleep in her swing. I wish I could do this for her. I hate the idea of her having to receive any treatment for whatever she does or doesn't have to correct. Although I'm reassured it isn't true, I feel like a failure of a mother in some way. I look at this little baby, who counts on me for everything, and feel like I let her down. (sorry for venting)
Anyway, we're currently in the waiting stage. I've got books being shipped to our local library from all around Michigan, regarding infant physical therapy and stretching exercises to help correct this problem. We've started some basic stretching during feeding and play time and I'm hoping this will begin to remedy the problem.
In the meantime, we'll be stretching and praying, and as always - keeping bananas where the ought to be - in Grace's mouth. :)